Skate Dallas!

Skate Dallas .. Not so great

I was super nervous .. Not so great

I fell on my salchow .. Not so great

I got fourth place .. Not so great

The car ride on the way home .. priceless!

I had a figure skating competition in Dallas yesterday. My family and I drove down there Friday night and stayed with the people that lead my parents to Christ! It was so good finally meeting them! :)

Then Saturday we left their house and headed for Carolten, (where we use to live) and visited our neighbors! It was just like old times! I just love them!

Then we checked into the skating rink in Grapevine Mills mall, It was crowed and crazy!! I've never seen so many figure skaters all in place at one time!! It really got me nervous!

Fudruckers was just accross the street so we met some old friends there and had lunch! Hadnt seen them in a while! They're great Christian friends and it was good visiting with them again!

We stayed Saturday night at Taylor's mom's house. I'm glad I finally got to see her house and my family got to meet them! Everything there turned out great! Sunday morning and and taylor got up and watched Life Church online! :) I had never done that before! 213 people tuned in and 26 of them got saved!

Then it was time to get ready and go to the skating rink. I was already so nervous I wanted to puke! When I got there, there were a little less people but still alot! My practice went ok but I was feeling a little unstable and my feet were numb! It was my turn to get on the ice. I'm stressed, and nervous. My salchow is my first jump I do, and the jump that I've been able to land for like 6 months! Its not hard for me at all. But for some reason I fall. I get up with a smile and go on doing the rest. On the next 3 elements were the ones I had been strugling a little bit with; my waltz-toe loop combo, my scratch spin, and my back spin. But all of those I did perfect! I was a little confused as to why I fell on the easiest thing for me and did so well on my hardest things. .

Well dissapointed and frustrated I got off the ice and waited for the results. I got 4th. I was really upset. I've only competeted 2 other times and got first! This is my first time to screw up! But I guess its not worth winning if you dont have to fight for it. . There will always be another competition.

The ride home is about 3 1/2 hours. I was still frustrated and me and taylor we fighting. After talking with my parents they agreed to letting me ride in the car with him on the way home! :) (we drove right in front of them, haha)

For about the first 15 min we just listened to music and I wouldnt really talk and was just being subburn! (I can have a big attitude sometimes!) But after thinking about it I knew it was stupid and we werent getting anything accomplised! So I turned off the music, and just said, lets talk!

We had the BEST conversations! Those 3 1/2 hours flew right by! Everything we were arguing about was resolved in about 10 or 15 min of talking about it, then we just enjoyed our company the rest of the way! We talked about the weekend, and about the parts that were tempting, and about what we need to change so we wont temp each other so much. We also discussed our future, getting just information about what the other is thinking, or how they feel about things and just finding a common ground.

Everything just seemed so out in the open! And I finally felt 100% comfortable and myself. I could burp in front of him! We talked about picking our nose! We talked about farting! I let him look, and even touch my feet! I stuck out my tongue with all the chewed up donut on it! haha. It was such an amazing thing just to be so open with the one you love! - oh and that was another thing we talked about...

He almost brought me to tears.. telling me just how much he really loved me, and why he loved me and what he loved about me!! It was compliment after compliment! I just wanted to record it! I wanted to freeze time and soak it all in! He's such an amazing guy! I cant appreciate him enough! It breaks my heart how sometimes I get so cought up in what he might've done wrong, and then just look past ALL the priceless things he does right for me! I almost think he spoils me too much ;) but I'm lovin it!!

Anyway, I would never in a million years trade that car ride for anything in the world! We laughed so much!! He makes me so happy! We're such alike in some ways, we're just goofy and there to have fun! Its crazy how much you can show a person how you love them, without even kissing!

Garage Sale!

Hey guys :)


So for those of you who dont know..


I'M GOING TO COSTA RICA IN JULY!!!





Yay! I'm so excited! I'm going July 21 to Aug 4th with Teen Mania, which is through Global Expeditions and Ron Luce etc.


The trip is $2079 and I only have $400 right now..





I'm having a garage sale May 16th, 17th, and 18th, at Shannas. If you have anything laying around the house that you would like to donate that would be amazing!! You can either set up a time to meet me and I can get it. Or if you could just drop it by Shanna's if you know where she lives.





I'm so excited about this trip! (also a little scared) But I know God is calling me to go, and I know God will protect me! I know God will provide for me!





I just ask for your prayers!





Thank you so much!





(if you want to know more about the people I'm going with go to http://www.globalexpeditions.com/)





If you need to get ahold of me about donations for the garage sale, call 623-0520.





THANKS!





:)

MY STORY- PART 14 REDEMPTION

This is the last one for my story!!!

Over the months of healing I really started building a relationship with my family again. Me and my mom would acutally have conversations and not fight! We would go shopping and just enjoy each other! We became great friends. I finally got the relationship I had wanted all these years, just to have fun together and understand each other and trust each other!

After many weeks of praying I felt it was time to move back in! I told my family Dec 13th that I would move in on New Years! To start the New Year off right! :) and I did. It has been amazing the understanding we have for each other now! We respect ones thoughts, feelings and opinions! And come to think of it, we have really "fought" since I've been home!

The one thing I would change is time. There is only so much time in a day that I have to balance between God, family, work, school, figure skatin, dance, Taylor, Crawfords, all my girl friends etc. I wish I had all the time in the world to be with my amazing family and show them how much i really do love them! I'm not home enough at all and that is one thing I am trying to work on!

Well even though everything else is just going AMAZING! (ONLY because of Jesus my savior!) I still do struggle, I still have temptations, and hard times. But thank God for forgiviness! Everytime I fail, instead of just keep doing that, I just stand back up and run towards God. I do still go through dry seasons and wilderness tests, wondering if God still loves me! But its just silly when to think that when you actually step back and look at what ALL he has saved me from!!!

I hope you've enjoyed reading this! If you have any question please dont hesitate to talk to me. Love you guys so much!

ps. I give ALL the Glory to JESUS CHRIST! HE is the one who saved me! HE is the one who healed me! HE is the one who helps me through every day!!

~ Wendy

PROM 2008!!

Hey, so I'm taking another pause from my story, although I'm almost done! :)



Saturday night, April 12th, 2008 was my first and last Prom!! It was AMAZING!



Deleise took our pictures! :) (thanks Deleise!)



There are soo many great ones! but I chose a couple of my favorite to post! There are more on my myspace!



About the Dance: It was amazing! I spent thewhole day primping; getting a tan, and my nails done, and my hair done etc. He showed up in a Dodger Charger (the coolest car ever!) and took lots of pictures then went to eat at OPUS! It was supppperrr good!! And the restaurant was realllyy nice! Then we went to the dance which was at Will Rogers Theater. Let me tell ya, we had the best time! We danced our hearts out, but in a healthy manor. At times it was really tempting to do what everyone else was doing and dirty dance. But instead we would just salsa or rumba or tango etc. it was a blast! its amazing how he respects me soooo much! :)

He's amazing we've been together for a little over 8 months and its been the BEST 8 months ever! we havent even kissed! and decided to save that for marriage! and we've never yelled at each other. every time we argue we just talk it out.He treats me like a princess! i've NEVER EVER EVER had someome have so much respect for me!!!! its like i'm living out a fairytale ♥

MY STORY PART 13- PEACE LOVE AND HAPPINESS

Taylor was a gift God sent to me. He became my best friend and help keep me accountable. We knew each other for barely 3 weeks but I already had felt so comfortable with him. I couldnt help but start liking him! Whats NOT to like??



Well August 10th was the day I was getting to the point that I had had enough. I thought (from other people telling me) that he wasnt so serious about "us". That he didnt like me the way I had liked him. That I was just tricking myself and that I just needed to get out before I got hurt.. I was upset and about to tell him that I didnt even want to talk to him again! I jumped to soo many conclusions and just figured that he was just sucking me in to use me just like what I had always known..



So on August 10th, 2007 Taylor calls me and wants to know if he can stop by for like 10 min. Within 15 or 20 min he's at my (shannas) front door step and I let him in.. I could sense something was different today, I didnt know if it was good or bad. But it was just a little awkward. So he made up a silly excuse to get me outside to talk to him, he said he wanted me to go see all his new books he just picked up for school! haha.. so I walked out front with him.



He turned around and we started talking. Talking about how fast we jumped into this relationship and quickly became friends! But then, instead of saying he didnt want to talk anymore... He asked me to be his girlfriend! I was shocked! Excited! Breathless! Undescribable!



Was this not the same guy I thought God would NEVER allow me to date because he was so perfect? The one I thought would NEVER want to date ME?? Wow, was I wrong!



That night we ended up hanging out with Laurel and all of our friends (about 10 of us) stayed out and went TP-ing, to IHOP, to Laurels.. and just all over town! It was so much fun.. and I'm really glad we got this time together because this was the night we decided we werent going to kiss till marriage.



This was almost a struggle saying this, but I knew it was best, and what I truly wanted in the long run! I had had a taste of everything else and knew exactly what I didnt have, and what I wanted more than anything "Purity!"



Even though so many look at us and think we're crazy extremest for not even kissing, it puts so much more meaning into our relationship. We strive to show each other in other ways how we feel. It makes it so much more deeper and meaningful. Taylor has so much respect for me that it never ceases to amaze me!! Even I have been tempted and tried to just give up and kiss him before, but he's always the strong one, the one that keeps me accountable and keeps this relationship healthy! He is such a Godly leader!



You know, theres a difference between a "Christian" boyfriend and a "Godly" boyfriend! He is by far the Godly one! Always keeping God first and praying with me and helping me!!



Yesterday was our 8 month anniversary!! And I am SO proud to say that NOT one time have we let our lips touch or let our hand wander where they shouldn't! God is so good! He gave me EXACTLY what I needed!



Sometimes I'm thankful for the times all the guys took advantage of me, cause if I never had a bad boyfriend,
I wouldnt know what a good one feels like!






Next post will be about picking up the leftover garbage in my life, and moving back in with my parents!! yay!

MY STORY PART 12- DECISIONS

I gave Shanna and Jerome permission to keep me accountable, with this came many rules and boundaries. I could only hang out with people if I was with on of my amazing friends, Laurel. And I couldnt be on the phone past 11. And I fasted the phone and computer 2 days a week. etc. At times, this would become frustrating. . I was so use to using myspace or other guys to just escape the world when I was hurt.. by them stripping those things away from me it just left me broken, but drew me to God.

I developed healthy relationships and going to church for the right reasons. Me and my mom and my family were even getting closer and fighting less. This was such a major transition for me, but I saw the light on the other side, and knew as I was crossing the bridge it would be hard, but when I make it to the other side it'll be well worth it!

At this point, I was getting so close to God, and building a relationship I had never had before, that for once in my life I honestly felt like I didnt need a guy to complete me! I enjoyed just spending time with God, and my new friends that were GIRLS! and shanna and my family etc! I felt complete!! more complete than any other guy could ever make me feel! This was so reassuring to me, and helped me fight for purity and Godliness!

Barely a month went by before I met the man of my dreams! It was a friday night the end of July... I'm pretty sure the 20th. . anyways, Laurel and the girls, and some other guys were having a movie night at Laurel's house! I had noticed this guy name Taylor previously at church, and spoke a little to him last wednesday night, but never really talked to him..

It was getting to the end of the night, and we had been on opposite sides of the room basically the whole night. People started leaving and it came down to just 4 or 5 left. We all went outside in the driveway and started talking. Laurels friend that lived across the street was out so we walked over there. I didnt really know any of them left, and was bored and tired so grabbed a blanket and started to fall asleep on the driveway. . After dozing off a few times I finally got and sat on the back of mikes pickup. Taylor sat down beside me and we began talking.

We talked untill I think almost 3 am! It was crazy. I had never met someone that had intrigued me so much! We exchanged numbers and agreed to keep in touch. . the very next night we hung out again! Went to a little coffee shop and talked for hours again. I could see how much devotion and passion and respect he had! I admired him. and held on to every word he spoke.

But of course satan was whispering in my ear.. how could such a Godly man EVER want to date a girl whose already done it all? already screwed up her life and thrown it in the dumpster? Of course he wouldnt want me! He wants a perfect Jesus lover that has never even looked at a guy! (well thats what I was thinking anyway)

We began talking almost everyday and hanging out alot. This was such a struggle for me just to trust God that I wasnt going to get heart broken! I didnt want to get too attached since I knew he deserved better and that it would never work out...


Next post will be about how our relationship came to be :)

MY STORY PART 11- THE CHANGE

So I returned back to Shannas, still not opening up. I had such a sexual desire to be accepted. For a while I thought that it was weird I felt this way, normally guys are sexually driven, and I felt like I was just the odd ball cause girls weren't suppose to have that want.

Anyways, I told Dean about everything that had happend in NC and he didnt handle it well, he exploded on me which made me feel me want to escape from everything that was happening. I thought physical desires would fill that void.

Shanna and Jerome have date night every thursday night (which is an amazing idea!) :)
But because I hadnt opened up to them, they didnt know my struggles or my past or really why I even moved out! They didnt really know I was weak. I didnt really have anywhere to go when they went on their date night, so I decided to just stay at their house alone, it would only be a couple of hours...

Well satan knew exactly what to do, it wasnt 10 min after they left when Ben(a guy from DC) texted and asked what was up. I told him I was home alone bored. He then replied he was just at 7/11 getting gas at Danforth and Santa fe. (well shanna and jerome live at that intersection!)
It was completely perfect, statan had set us up.

So, being the needy self I WAS I then invited him over. . We went to my room and one thing led to another.. Jerome had left something and came back to the house. We were caught! This was one of the most embarrassing, humilitating, convicting, shamed, and emotional nights I had had in a looong time! I broke into tears and started packing, believing I would just move out, cause there was NO WAY they would forgive me! (I was so silly)

Jerome told me they wouldnt have me move out and I just needed to go talk to him and shanna. this was the night June 28th, 2007 I truly surrendered my life to God! Me and Shanna stayed up to the wee hours in the morning talking and crying and sharing and laughing. Those were such sweet and cherished moments! It was that night that I saw I had accountability, I had hope, I had people who loved me, I had Jesus by my side!

I cant even explain the change I felt just in that one night! I went from one person to some one TOTALLY different! Just like 2nd Corinthian 5:17 He makes ALL things new! I've never felt so loved and accepted by my daddy up in heaven! For once in my life I actually had a geniune PASSION to know him! A PASSION to live my life for him! I surrenderred everything thing! There was NO WAY I would ever go back to the way I was!

Next will talk about the changes I made in my life :)
yay! finally to the good part! thanks for reading!

--oh and i'm sorry if I was blunt and scared you guys away in my last post :( I was just being honest--